Ab initio

Here I'm again to say things which meant for every being...
I know its been long but what they says "its everyday a new day".
months of dilly delaying, doing nothing but just fool around can have grim effects on any being.

For me it was like long hibernation period... like an abandoned place get dingy and smell of cobwebs, my mind now complains of shit and rust.
for this time being I was being taken and broken into many a trusts.
something in me not sure of the real taste of love.
I tried to grasp the forbidden fruit but alas it was only forbidden and I was no good at being the cupids recruit.
all my enabling was to conquer their love and trust but the fate mired against me was fatal...left me in total disgust..
now I'm standing here holding the ever weakening flame of something that is called love.
alas a storm is inevitable... so here I'm musing on my options... Run for cover or let the flame vanquish.
for only I know its an agony whether it survive or not.
and in the end only I'll be there all lost and  no where to go,
for then there'll come the devil telling me I told you so.
A noble me, can't let this imp persist, will throw open there doors for some angel to descend
but oh my loony luck, the guiding angel in my stars is none other than this Cupid the Godly pornstar..
sparing all it'll give me deadly stung, his arrow and my hearty blood.
it will nosh me to someone's lust again,
just hoping to survive again.

my first complite verse

Prologue:
Dear friends its been a year since I'm in JIET and I really enjoyed it a lot but as u all I was too a fresher 12 months before, There were many gals not Much{do hell 2 gals college} but that was fine, ya here I want 2 share wid u the gal wid whom I got infatuated to the edges of Madness In starting I stalked her and then later just watched her at my best chance, I saw her first when she came in My LT asking us 2 participate in Fresher's Day; What a pearly white and adorable she was, she was senior to me but I got my soul stuck wid here she was in 2nd yr, I later came 2 know about it. But I just followed her my all senses shut and mouth wide open and agape up to her LT-2.then I watched her quite often in breaks but never had daring 2 face her and Talk her But a poetic me I drafted MY Truest Feelings 4 her in the form of poetry which I'm sharing wid u.



Love! ?
I don’t know… but…

A few words that’s what I want
Idea of failure that’s what I haunt,

“I like you,
I love you,
Or I am infatuated with you.”
These are the words I want to express,
But a modest me, keep them unexpressed.

For what I praise your beauty,
You are in yourself a deity.
When you walk the path boasts of charm,
That’s the eternal bliss, keeps me warm

I don’t know the day when I saw you,
But haven’t seen any else, the moment I felt you,
Don’t know why?
I wonder, what time a quest cover,
But mine was over.
That was the first time; I felt it prevail,
The love, to whom I over sighted; now stands my avail.

The sight of yours, O charming
Drives me lucky and warming
It’s an irony that, I don’t see you much,
Truth is; we are poles apart,
But the desire lingers to have you such,
Like a leaf contain dew,
Morning makes it a pearl,
It’s the glory of love the moments drew.

But problem; remain the same,
How I dare to convey?
The love, both in me and my way.
And I hate to keep you stalking,
A feminist me keep thinking
It’s only on your desire,
Me or whatever else, you aspire.
However you act,
This troubadour will keep his feelings intact.

: - Dev
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